A fourth adolescence?
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A fourth chance, in fact.
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A fourth adolescence?

May 18, 2011

There are down sides to the end of a relationship - grief, loss, pain, regrets.

One up side is, in some way, entering another adolescence. Adolescence, that time when everything seems possible - including maybe finding a forever love - a time of reaching out or not, of being afraid or not, of saying no or not.

I don't have much to say about adolescence, except maybe that each time is different.

For me, the first time around (true adolescence, in terms of actual age) so much shyness and so many hopes. So like a seed, full and yet locked in, in many ways.

The second time - the scariest. I felt so old, though hardly over 30.

The third time - the most fun. Not easy, and sometimes hard to stay true to myself - but much more fun than the first time, or the second time, around.

This time - in some ways it's the hardest. I'm coming to it with the sense of much grief and loss. I think, on the other side, that I'm stronger within myself than I've ever been, and especially that I've cleared more of the inner blocks than ever before. So it feels to me that I'm more likely than ever before to come to something truly right for me, as I feel most right within myself.

I know what the stats say - that each consecutive relationship is less likely to last than the one before. So a second marriage is less likely to last than a first. Maybe we just learn to give up more quickly.

My own sense, for myself, is that I'm a bit on a quest, like one of those old-fashioned knights - only the challenges are much less external obstacles than internal ones.

Responses and your own experiences very welcome.


Elsa

Second chance at love?
Part comes from unearthing
buried love.

Second chance at life?
Part comes from
learning how to love yourself.

A fourth adolescence?
A second chance at love, at life?
A fourth chance, in fact.
It's not just try try again.
So much is different.
Blog journals, diary blogs.
Thoughts on life.