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Just Allow It?

I've just been listening to some stuff on Just Allow It - not trying to change oneself, just trying to feel what is happening, not trying to improve oneself, just paying attention to what is going on within and outside, not fighting things, just ... allowing things.

As always, I come to questions. If I just allow others, let them go with their flow, in a way that makes sense. I'm not trying to improve, convince, and so on. Much easier for them and, in some ways, for me.

But ... and here is my but ... often this means not allowing myself to be as I am. I'm not thinking of trying to convince others, improve others - that kind of thing.

But what if I feel like talking to someone, if I feel like sending an email ... and they haven't answered a previous email.

How does that work? I'm at this point with several people. Part of me goes: just let them be, let them be at their own yes or no or whatever.

Another part of me goes: but what about me, about the words that are coming up in me? Like I'd like to share these thoughts with them on ... just allowing it. How does one juggle just allowing them and just allowing oneself. Of course with another email or 2, if I don't get anything back, my own desire to connect will stop.

But in the meantime, when there's just a small imbalance, and my puppy side is out - hey I have this thought, hey what do you think of this - what do I do with this? I can just allow myself to recognize my own impulse. I can also just allow that action - which I have the sense is the kind of thing that makes many people take a step back. After all, I've come closer when they haven't moved.

Just allowing myself to recognize the impulse, and knowing I can choose to act or not act - that's different from having the impulse and being too shy / scared to act.

Anyway, those are some thought I've had on just allowing things when of course I'm not the only person in the world - and my allowing flows (or maybe thuds) against other people's being the way they are.

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on loving creativity while
bored enough to scream with other things -
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on buried love -
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Elsa's Blog Journals.
On what is a good life,
thoughts about life,
memory distortions,
I feel lost.
Diary blogs,
educational blogs,
most popular blogs.