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A down day. A dull day. A nothing feels right day.
Elsas Creativity Blog explores: needing to get through to another day.
Even when down, I know there's hope, even when I can't feel it.

SEPTEMBER 9, 2007

THERE ARE DAYS THAT DO NOT FEEL RIGHT

Maybe it's just that I didn't get enough sleep last night. Maybe it's that I've put off taking a bath until now, evening. Whatever it is, today isn't a great day inside me.

So much further I want to reach - and today everything feels out of reach. I've tried hard enough and more than hard enough, the inside voices go.

At other times, I go on and on even when I'm not getting far.

And I do recognize that it's only a bit over a year since this site started being up on the web.

But today things just don't feel right.

One of the cats - Petit Chat, Little Cat - who is blind and hearing impaired, isn't doing that well. It has nothing to do with her lack of sight and limited hearing. She may have eaten an aspirin Friday morning, so spent the day at the vet's, being made to vomit and stuff like that because aspirin is toxic for cats and dogs (I was with her much of the time). Anyway, she is feeling worse today, Sunday, than she was when I brought her home Friday - most likely because she has a very sore esophagus and stomach from all she was forced to ingest to make her vomit.

But that isn't it - that's just one part of it.

I need my stuff to be out in the world much more than it is.

Diana - so good meeting up with her this week. Editor. And general good fairy.

My hope: meeting with her regularly will take a load off me, will help me in my quest to reach much more of the world.

Wrote something a bit earlier - from the sense, so common and yet often so far away, that it's all a bit much.

I know, at the same time, that tomorrow is another day, and much more can happen, and also muc more will feel possible on the inside.

I think of teenagers - committing suicide more than ever before. The most recent stats: up 21% from the previous statistics. I think: teenagers don't have the experience to know that the downtime is just a phase, just a mood - and that energy, joy, delight will come again, given time and a bit of effort.

So I am living this day of despair, but it isn't true despair, because I know the mood will pass, the moment will give way to another. I will go to sleep and wake up, most likely, with more energy, more belief that I will be able to reach at least part of what I need to reach to come to any kind of fulfillment.

As always, welcome into my world.

signed,

Elsa

SEPTEMBER 9, 2007

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A down day. A dull day. A nothing feels right day.
Elsas Creativity Blog explores:
needing to get through to another day.
Even when down, I know there's hope,
even when I can't feel it.

How do I get my creative works, and those of others,
out into the world? Steps, stages, successes, failures.
All in Elsas creativity blog. Creativity -
not easy to find/make a home for it.

elsas creativity blog
is not the same as elsas creativity log - a jotting down of events, of time spent

elsas creativity blog
is not a hop and stop
     tip top mop shop pop drop
elsas creativity blog
     is elsas creativity blog
     is elsas creativity blog

but what is elsas creativity blog?

elsas creativity blog
     is stop and start
          on and off
       trying
       doing
       ever renewing
                    elsas creativity blog
                    elsas creativity blog
     is not a dog
                 log
                 fog
                 smog
                 groggy old nodding off creativity blob
     is a wide awake
         revving up
         ever making up stuff
                 elsas creativity blog

elsas creativity blog -
     a short stop to bring you along
                           as I'm making up the site
                           feeling my way
                           like a jungle explorer
                           creepers and crawlers every which way
                           how to get through the day?
                           I couldn't say
that's elsas creativity blog

where does it come from?
where des it go?
elsas creativity blog doesn't know

it records the words elsa writes
it stays the course
it blogs all night
it's delighted to be blogging
         leap frogging
                  over words
                  over muddles
                  over huddles
                           of word lugging trouble
                  over word puddles
                  and into word puddles

elsas creativity blog
         elsas creativity blog
                  elsas creativity blog
                      is a blog by elsa
                            on creative endeavors
                      is elsa's trying
                            once more vying
                                   to reach the world
                                        let words unfurl
                                        let them rumble
                                        let them blog into the sunset
                                              over the hill
                                              down the dale
                                              up the mountain
                                              down the vale
              elsas creativity blog
                       is a faithful old horse
                                 that won't stop
                         it blop blop blogs
                                 a faithful old horse
                                     stopping now and then in its course
                                          to chew its cud
                                              letting ideas bud
                                     and then blogging alone
                                          blogging along
                                              clip clop blip blop

                         elsas creativity blog
                             elsas creativity blog
                                      elsas creativity blog

                                                                                     Elsa Schieder
                                                                                      July 9, 2006
                                                                                      © Elsa Schieder, 2006

A note for those of you who, like me, care that I sometimes write "Elsas creativity blog" and sometimes "Elsa's creativity blog." I prefer to use "Elsa's" - this is the grammatically correct spelling. But there are rules of the web. One rule: there are places where one can't use apostrophes. Another rule: one is supposed, at specific times, to use the spelling identical to the place where one can't use apostrophes.

A down day. A dull day. A nothing feels right day. Elsas Creativity Blog explores: needing to get through to another day. Even when down, I know there's hope, even when I can't feel it.

How do I get my creative works, and those of others, out into the world? Steps, stages, successes, failures. All in Elsas creativity blog. Creativity - not easy to find/make a home for it.

A down day. A dull day. A nothing feels right day.
Elsas Creativity Blog explores:
needing to get through to another day.
Even when down, I know there's hope,
even when I can't feel it.

How do I get my creative works, and those of others,
out into the world? Steps, stages, successes, failures.
All in Elsas creativity blog. Creativity -
not easy to find/make a home for it.